The Balance Scale of a Spirit's Bodily Connections

First Point on the Scale of Communicative Application - "I DON'T GIVE A FUCK"
Complete disregard of whatever opinion, flawed thought process and limited awareness judgments the other party might have. Finds it unnecessary and likely futile to make the effort to engage and create an environment suitable for their ego's walls and masks to still bring across the message of truth and scholarly study.

Mid Point to Center on the Scale of Communicative Application - "CARING JUST THAT LITTLE BIT"
The flawed thought processes are inconsequential due to easy labelling in the pretext of understanding. Politely engages but does not Love and thus the intention to impartially not create any environment slowly moves towards hostility. After all, the insistence to keep a scholarly condition was done with full knowledge of the other's inability, in that circumstance, to do so.

Center on the Scale of Communicative Application - "HARMONY"
Flawed thought processes are a part of the truth as the truth encompasses more than just the stripped beginning. Understanding is knowing one smooth point to the next and is not the maker of Right and Wrong. Engages empathisingly, whole-heartedly human to human, and disengages trustingly, individualistically human to human. Detached enough to see everything but attached enough to feel everything. And so the communicative input will only be the piecing of jigsaws, from smaller to bigger puzzles.

Mid Point to Last Point on the Scale of Communicative Application - "OVER-CARING JUST THAT LITTLE BIT"
Knows that all thought can be understood but does not truly understand. Analyse and vocalise to aid and point, all seeing but not feeling. Engages nearly too deeply but disengages in reluctance to invade yet the interference has already made its way into the confused mind and damage might have already been done.

Last Point on the Scale of Communicative Application - "I FUCKING CARE TOO MUCH"
Thoroughly disregards understanding but insists upon the truth. Hot-headed passion-filled analysis creates a mess of the actual Truth. The other party's wayward thinking frustrates and angers but that creates a more powerful disgust inward. The resulting negative friction eradicates all the precious thoughts that was exchanged and what remains will only be the bruised ego and the hate.

Deepak Chopra and Meditation

Beautiful, beautiful Deepak Chopra. I can see from his demeanour and his words that his mind and heart fuses together so very coherently. He is at such a meditative, balanced mode, where logic and emotion intertwines at equilibrium, that he can tap into the mysteries more easily than the rest of us with our chaotic minds. What he is is just so perfectly human. A great example of our innermost potential. I would really love to sit him down and talk to him all day.

The Carrying Mess

~Unfocussed Brilliance Leads Nowhere~

I understand that swear words deserve not that heavy taboo that was given them because their presence signifies many movements - the right to free speech, the right to expression, the liberation of the self. Beyond that, what I see is that there is nothing so damning with using vulgarities to express oneself. The intensity that a curse word can give has sometimes the only suitable weight to perfectly articulate the feeling behind it. Isn't exactness, in purity (without conditioning and taboos), the only thing anyone would want to project in communication? So it seems that the taboo upon swearing only came about in a form of suppression of that intensity of feeling. That if we do not swear, do not tangibly show that feeling in words, that immense energy will not exist, and society is as emotionless as it ever was. Invisible walls as a fortress to keep the unwanted out.

Older people who are seeking safety and security do not like to be riled up and so feel scandalised by the release of such intensity. Negative or positive intensity is as scandalising but the 'negative' ones (curse words easily fit into that category) get bashed up much quicker because justification can be effortlessly arranged using either religion's blasphemy, reasonless authority or association devices.

>I know this but I hesitate to use the word FUCK when I meet a new friend of the same sex and same race. I wait to know what the person is like before choosing to be comfortable and myself around the person, no longer watchful of my words, but expressing exactly the content and the feeling of what I want to say. It is so fake to be technical like this when it is only the content and feeling that truly matters.

The female gender is less tolerant of the word because less of their sex use it, probably because I do think in general, women as opposed to men do not question convention as much (or perhaps as openly). It's a logical assemblance of thought since women have been suppressed for so long having a history of being dependants and considered by men (who were the only ones allowed to own property) to be either assets/liabilities. Loosely speaking, the world is more condemning on women who use swear words rather than men, and so among themselves they have gradually developed the idea to a fact that it is unbecoming for a woman to use such vulgarities and when someone does, to be offended or shocked, especially if it comes from a lady. It is as though the person has crossed a boundary meaningfully with the intent to provoke or create chaos for everybody else around.

The Chinese do expect certain proprieties to be observed and spouting off swear words left and right is definitely not something easily tolerated. If it is an elder, the violator's head would be bitten off in the ensuing rebuke or frozen off in the ensuing hostility. And all the more since I am chinese and should be aware of the practices of the Chinese, the likelier the invading response if the recipient of my vulgarities is of the mind that the said words are taboo.

Thus I have to test the waters before I can safely be myself. Which is completely bullshit since testing the waters means the other party bravely exposes herself/himself first and then I know it is okay. Like the people I have thought to be untruthful to themselves in the desperate want for safety and security, I am the hypocrite that cannot carry myself through a simple task in the fear of offending and shocking. In addition to that, very often during the process of testing the waters, I am a mess of self, not knowing how to respond or initiate, conducting myself terribly like a confused girl who can be put down, laughed at by anyone since I seem alright with it.

I seek to understand many things. Vulgar language is just an example. But knowing so much in theory and not being these things is just bullshit yet again. I know this and that is why I am a carrying mess. I carry myself as a mess. This isn't always true because sometimes I am clearheaded and complete, but those times are short breaths taken in a long day out.

I must be who I am in my head, or else I will never be living up to my full potential. My mind's messages are too separate from my body's delivery.

Off I go to be full.

















~a short breath still brings life to a difficult day~